What if I had had a brother or a sister, how different would I be and how different would my life have been ?
To have had siblings, to have shared a family, to have imbibed the sense of being a part of something organic growing and developing of which I was a part but only a part.
How now as I become old and reflective would I benefit from having someone to relate to,our upbringing and our
memories of childhood. Memories of our parents and the events that we
shared under their protection. Memories of crisis, memories of joy,
memories
of danger, and memories of sadness. The synthesising of two or more
brains to make sense of the time when we were vulnerable and susceptible.
Some people are blessed with large families, lots of brothers and sisters who went on to shape their own lives but
were still kith and kin forming a bond if for no other reason than the
proximity of growing up under one roof with all the flash points
and confinement. Being controlled by the same ring masters, Mom and Dad
each child tried to find their own independence through which to form their own character their own identity.
To sit and ruminate about those days is a pleasure I have never had or will have. The "only child" is a lonely furrow
in some ways, in others it can be a blessing. One had the total
absorption of ones parents love and attention. And whilst this could
and often does lead to spoiling, developing a sense of overblown self
importance, at least the withering weight of competing for the spoils of parental attention was never my problem.
It's only now as the speed of fulfilment dies away and reflection
replaces resentment that such and such hadn't happened, does one miss,
like a palaeontologist misses that fragment of bone, the recall of
conversation and events played out as you were
growing up.
That bond, which at times fragments into argument can not be destroyed, much as the forces surrounding and uniting
the atom, the forces binding family are immeasurably strong and so I
suggest who ever you are, what ever disagreement you might have had
when you were last together, pick up the phone to your brother or
sister and say, "Hi I'm sorry I haven't spoken for such a long time but when can we get together" ?
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